Failed Audition

I impatiently wait for that email from Zumba home office. I log in and out of the Zumba forums to check on others who also wait to hear if they made the audition or not. Many talk about dreaming of being a jammer and others speak of how anxious they are to hear the news. Noon passes and still no word.... I continue to check the forums when I see someone post, "CHECK YOUR EMAILS"! I click refresh on my email icon and the pop up on my phone says "Zumba Fitness" by this time it's almost 6pm and I'm on my way to teach the group of women who helped me through the process.... I finally get to a stop light and I open the email. The minute I read, " We regret to inform you that we are unable to offer you the role of Zumba Jammer at this time."  I close my email and drive in silence. I anxiously wait until the next stop light to log back into the Zumba forum to see who made the audition. As I read each post, I see.. "I didn't make it" pictures of sad faces and posts of frustration. One instructor posted this was her 4th time auditioning. She felt she nailed it this time and had assistance from jammer friend of hers. I didn't see any posts of instructors who made it but perhaps they are just being polite ....

I continue to drive and I know my students are wondering if I made it. They too were nervous for me. I show up and they all give me that look like, " did u make it?" What they didn't know was that I had already posted the news in our private Facebook group. I disappointedly let them know I didn't make it. Of course their first reaction was to comfort me and that they did! They gave me tons of energy that day and smiled big as they did their hard Sentao workout. 

Wondering what I could have done better/different; Zumba home office isn't able to give feed back because of the overwhelming amount of auditions. I will continue to attend Zin jam sessions, work on improving my skills and audition again the next time around. I'm not sure I have the will power of the instructor who auditioned 4 times but I will try again. 

"If at first you don't succeed, pick yourself up and try again".... That's all I can do :)